I am spending the last day of my summer vacation with myself. I have been allowing inspired thoughts and actions. I venture more deeply into the state of “what other people think of me is none of my business”. I envy those humans who already believe this. I am not there yet. I often allow myself to be guided by the real or imagined reaction of others. I seek approval. I cannot imagine life without it, right now in this moment. It is, however, the next step for me. Every moment is a step along the path which is my life, and the better I pay attention to the path, the more I am useful . Would I rather feel loss or freedom? Would I rather feel anxious or content? Would I rather feel useful or useless? Would I rather feel sadness or contentment? Would I rather feel love or disconnection? I am blessed.
I began writing this blog for myself, for my journey, for support to continue until the end of the 30 days. As soon as people started liking it, however, it started gradually shifting towards being a vehicle for attention and approval. Today, with 11 days to go, I’m shifting back. At this very moment I’m not sure how that will play out, but it is my intention. Would I rather be distracted or focused? I’m not sure. Would I rather feel good or bad? I would rather feel good.
I can focus and choose the thoughts I think, and I can be guided by connection to source and emotions which guide me.