I like to keep my feet on the ground and my head in the clouds. Or sometimes on the pillow. The special freedom of a teacher’s life in the Summer is drawing to a close in the next couple of weeks. Not like the end of summer for a kid, which is just a shock one day when you have to get up and go to school. Teachers ease in, with a few meetings, classroom prep, setting up the computer. Then, the First Day of School. But for today, it’s still Summer with a capital S, and today the S was for snooze. The kind of day where I decided to take a nap at 8 am. Woke with a headache. Lots of chances to have unproductive thoughts. And then ignore them and go back to sleep. No going to the gym. No getting dressed, for that matter.
I do realize that changing thought patterns can be exhausting, and so I very much appreciated the chance to just let myself be today. Kind of like my chiropractor wants me to rest my neck after the adjustment.
Maybe someone is keeping up with my daily practices, and if so, you know that today was remembering that I don’t actually know what other people are thinking. Yep, it came in handy today. The truth is that my negative thoughts about myself are usually hidden…shrouded perhaps…in these thoughts about how I can please others. Or manage them. Or get them off my back. Or fool them. Poppycock! Here’s how it went today…Wake up and think “all the other teachers think I”m lazy” …”oh yeah, I don’t actually know what other people think” “am I lazy”…”no, I don’t think so”. Go back to sleep. Good stuff to know.
Tomorrow…I really want a cleaned up house, so the best thoughts to practice are thoughts of worthiness. I am lovable – not in spite of who I am but because of who I am. And so are you.