A veteran teacher turned coach shadows 2 students for 2 days – a sobering lesson learned

This is so helpful. It keeps me strong in my desire to get kids up and talking.

Granted, and...

The following account comes from a veteran HS teacher who just became a Coach in her building. Because her experience is so vivid and sobering I have kept her identity anonymous. But nothing she describes is any different than my own experience in sitting in HS classes for long periods of time. And this report of course accords fully with the results of our student surveys. 

I have made a terrible mistake.

I waited fourteen years to do something that I should have done my first year of teaching: shadow a student for a day. It was so eye-opening that I wish I could go back to every class of students I ever had right now and change a minimum of ten things – the layout, the lesson plan, the checks for understanding. Most of it!

This is the first year I am working in a school but not teaching…

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Day 16 of loving my job

Thanks to a good friend at work, I’m back to sharing my love with whomever decides to read this.  I am pleased as punch that I decided to love my job, because it is really loving me back.  It’s fun staying in the same job and watching it transform.  One of the things I like about teaching is that it constantly changes, one 50 minute period at a time.  The rituals are there, and are comforting to all of us – teachers and students alike.  And also, we are free to think and grow and try new things and grow and fail and try again.  Our school has a new principal who is encouraging me to mix things up and try new things and I am taking her at her word and doing that.  We have people at the district office who are encouraging us to spend more time building community, and encouraging human interaction, and are introducing us to some tools to do that.  And I am embracing it as it feels right to me, and it’s new and it feels good.  A whole bunch of kids today were clamoring for me to show them how to convert a mixed number to an improper fraction.  That is good.  And I got to say a whole bunch of times – ” see, this would be so much easier if you knew your times tables.”  And I have a way for them to learn it.  And so it goes.

Day 3 – still loving it

Here’s the deal  Everybody should do a 30 day love blog.  Or journal, whatever.  It is so darn awesome.  I’m not serious, because I know that each individual has their own path, and this is simply mine – the right path for Molly.  And I do very much love my path.  But your path is cool too.  But not quite as cool as mine.  I’ll shut up now.  About that.  

I love my job because I get to connect.  With the funnest people on the planet – 7th graders.  Yes, I know funnest isn’t a word.  I don’t care and neither do they.  I am contented and peaceful.  We are going to learn so much this year, and with so little effort.  We will “fun” our way through.  What’s not to love?


Day 29 Spontaneous self-love

Tonight I experienced spontaneous self-love.  What happened was, I was reading an email from a friend, and then began my response and a wave of happiness spread through me.  It was gentle and felt like love.  And the thought that entered was: “I love me!”  It’s cool, the outcome of this 30 day journey.  I have appreciated everyone’s love and comments and support very much.  I have really enjoyed the deepening connection I have felt with many.  OK, just used the thesaurus because “really enjoyed sounded weak”, so I have verily enjoyed reaching out. My words on this page (computer screen) cannot completely convey my experience.  Not simply because I can’t find the perfect words, but more because each human beings experience is different.  That has become clearer for me.  I have altered the way I experience life.  I have stepped back and been more accepting, in the sense that I wait, and listen, and allow the meaning of others’ to flow in.  images-6

I love this.  No wonder I love me.  How can I not love me, when what I am is an expression of god in human form.  I know that many would say they don’t believe that.  But everyone does know it.  We all just use our own words and have our own experience.  I like mine.


Day 27 – Courage

IMG_0543During my group meditation meeting tonight, I found that I have developed a habit of trusting my inner guidance to improve all areas of my life.  Slowly over the years I have been releasing the idea that I must power through, by myself, in certain areas of my life.  If I just work hard enough, or I am charming enough, or manipulative, or pushy, then I will get what I want.  And of course, sometimes I do get what I want.  But it doesn’t feel that good.  Feels like it could have been better, or easier, or more fun.  Sometimes I hurt people when I don’t want to.  But powering through is not the best way.  It’s ok, but not best.  And it’s hard work and dishonest and never best.  It’s like dieting.  And following what is called “god’s will” in some circles is better.  It feels more peaceful and effective.  And even when things go wrong it is much better because there is no big attachment.  

One of my spiritual books says that dependence on god is not the way of weakness; it is the way of strength.  But I didn’t understand that until tonight.  IMG_0895

Day 26 – Blind Date

images-5Yes, I am actually going on a blind date. We have communicated on email but not yet met. I probably should be getting ready but instead I am opening my life to you, my avid readership. I’m excited about it because of the transformed way of being I have been practicing and developing over the 26 days of blogging about loving my body. And by the way, I am about 5 pounds lighter than when I started. Gonna write a book – blogging your way to a slimmer you! No, I’m not. That would negate the whole premise of my blog, which is that my body knows what it needs and if I can get my own little plans and schemes out of the way, my body will thrive.

Ha! back to the blind date. It’s not the first date I’ve been on since Mark died in 2007.  But I am way more excited about it.  Same premise. My inner self knows what it needs in relation to dating and relationships, and tonight, I will get my own little plans and schemes out of the way and let it flow…


Day 25 – But being right MAKES me happy!

I was always photogenic
I was always photogenic

We all know the adage – would you rather be right or would you rather be happy.  Sadly, I always have to  ponder for a bit.  I just so like to be right!  I’ve been practicing enjoying my moments, and the moments are better when my focus is happiness, or joy or peace or contentment. Strangely enough, “being right” is disempowering.  It’s a hollow victory to trample someone else’s emotions or self-esteem.  But when I feel wronged, it takes a bit.  I do a forgiveness prayer.  I focus on other things.  I pray for the person.  I love, appreciate and value all the good that my life has to offer.  Let go of resentment.  It requires, for me, both intention and follow through.

I even look right in this baby pic.  

I have a gaggle (or more) of caring, loving and helpful folks in my life and I am never alone. It’s another gift.  By focusing on the fun and love of my life, I am bringing in more positivity  Like attracts like.  So they say. It continues to make my slightly uncomfortable.  That’s because I haven’t let go.  I want to be right, So, the commitment is not about anyone but ME.  So I’m going to go to bed now..Good night 

Day 16- A short post after midnight

Technically it’s Day 17 because it’s after midnight, but I’m not in bed yet so it still seems like Day 16 to me!  I started this blog because I thought that if I focused on loving my body, then healthy thoughts about my body could replace the old beliefs that were keeping me with a body that was often uncomfortable and aging.  Well, I was right.

You see, I knew to try it because I have experience with replacing old beliefs with new beneficial ones and seeing my life change for the better.  Here’s why I think it works:  I made up stories and developed beliefs all through life, and sometimes they get in my way.  They block what some call the Sunlight of the Spirit.  I get caught up in my head and I make other people wrong.  I have negative emotions and I cannot access the power of the universe.  

Bottom line is that after 50 years of hating my body in different ways, a few days of consciously noticing when I love my body, Not hating my body now comes naturally to me.  So my cells can cooperate with source.  I remain healthy.   

Day 10 – Slept ’till noon

I like to keep my feet on the ground and my head in the clouds.  Or sometimes on the pillow.  The special freedom of a teacher’s life in the Summer is drawing to a close in the next couple of weeks.  Not like the end of summer for a kid, which is just a shock one day when you have to get up and go to school.  Teachers ease in, with a few meetings, classroom prep, setting up the computer.  Then, the First Day of School.  But for today, it’s still Summer with a capital S, and today the S was for snooze.  The kind of day where I decided to take a nap at 8 am.  Woke with a headache.  Lots of chances to have unproductive thoughts.  And then ignore them and go back to sleep.  No going to the gym.  No getting dressed, for that matter.

I do realize that changing thought patterns can be exhausting, and so I very much appreciated the chance to just let myself be today.  Kind of like my chiropractor wants me to rest my neck after the adjustment.

Maybe someone is keeping up with my daily practices, and if so, you know that today was remembering that I don’t actually know what other people are thinking.  Yep, it came in handy today.  The truth is that my negative thoughts about myself are usually hidden…shrouded perhaps…in these thoughts about how I can please others.  Or manage them.  Or get them off my back.  Or fool them. Poppycock!  Here’s how it went today…Wake up and think “all the other teachers think I”m lazy” …”oh yeah, I don’t actually know what other people think”   “am I lazy”…”no, I don’t think so”.  Go back to sleep.  Good stuff to know.

Tomorrow…I really want a cleaned up house, so the best thoughts to practice are thoughts of worthiness.  I am lovable – not in spite of who I am but because of who I am.  And so are you.